I'm a survivor of domestic violence. These blogs are gonna be about my life and what I have experienced. They are how I saw things through my eyes and with my truths. Hopefully it will help someone else to get out and also help me continue to heal.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Is it normal to question every move .... every decision we make? I often wonder if I'm ready to be dating? I wonder if I can handle having a man in my life full time.....if I COULD bring a man into my children lives. I've been out of my abusive relationship for 3 years and 7 months (yes I'm counting) and I still question if I'm ready....if my children are ready. Can I allow myself to open up to someone knowing that I might get hurt again? I sometimes wonder if I can even feel anymore? It's not that I don't want to because I do...I really do but it just seems like I have no emotion involved in any of it. At this point it is not even about men tearing down my walls as much as it is about Me tearing down my own walls.